Biggest week for me in a while actually. I committed to my Nepal trip. This represents the earliest I've been able to commit to anything. The trip is scheduled for Oct 9, 2011 - Nov 9, 2011, and here I am, 11 months early committing to it. Actually, I committed to it two days ago, exactly 11 months early. I'll be visiting settled near the Chitwan National Park in Nepal helping to rebuild a school. For better or worse, I'll come back a changed person (of course it'll be for better). I don't think anyone can go to the birthplace of Buddhism to do good deeds without coming back changed and improved. I know that I'm not quite in good enough shape to thrive at that altitude, which should be somewhere around 3000 meters, so I'm going to spend the next 11 months getting in shape, losing body fat, building up strength, hiking for endurance, camping at altitude, all that good stuff... without giving up volleyball, volunteer work, and an active social life.
I also got a raise. Yay, right? Not too shabby after only five months. Raise, bonus, oh joy. I'd like to have someone to spoil with my good fortune... maybe my good fortune will affect my love life as well, and maybeI won't screw it up this time.
Also, I accept that I am quite possibly insane. I don't know exactly when it happened. I'm still quite affected, though I am able to see ever more clearly as time marches forward. But yes, I am quite possibly insane, bearing only the visage of sanity. I've chosen to embrace this insanity, even if it will burn me out before my allotted time. So be it. Bring it in, cosmos. What does an insane man have to fear? I have few fears nowadays. My biggest is that I will not learn from my history and so will be doomed to repeat over and over and over and over..... But I'm doing the things I know to do to hopefully prevent that awful future from coming to pass.
I also got a raise. Yay, right? Not too shabby after only five months. Raise, bonus, oh joy. I'd like to have someone to spoil with my good fortune... maybe my good fortune will affect my love life as well, and maybeI won't screw it up this time.
Also, I accept that I am quite possibly insane. I don't know exactly when it happened. I'm still quite affected, though I am able to see ever more clearly as time marches forward. But yes, I am quite possibly insane, bearing only the visage of sanity. I've chosen to embrace this insanity, even if it will burn me out before my allotted time. So be it. Bring it in, cosmos. What does an insane man have to fear? I have few fears nowadays. My biggest is that I will not learn from my history and so will be doomed to repeat over and over and over and over..... But I'm doing the things I know to do to hopefully prevent that awful future from coming to pass.